Doubt = Loss

There's this song that goes:  "Have you ever wondered why some men crawl while some men fly, it's a decision of the soul.  Life is always what you make it, you can live or you can fake it, it's a decision of the soul.  Anytime your life is changing, it's your soul that's rearranging."  There's more, howver, I think you get it. 

I am in the process of moving forward in my life and realizing that my thoughts direct flow, divert flow, promote or stifle flow.  I heard it said for years that we manifest what we think and I believe the meaning of that dawns on us slowly over time.  So, if I think, pray, focus on positive things theywill happen.  That which we focus on grows.  There are ten powerful two letter words: If it is to be it is up to me.  There's Zig Ziglar, Tony Robinson, Marianne Williamson, Jesus, Dali Llama, greatness pinpointed in a specific human being, varying degrees of greatness spreading messages of hope and self empowerment.

Dare to be self directed.  Dare to say the most positive thing that can come to mind when someone shares their good news with you.  Dare to support, encourage, hold up, push when necessary and above all promote childlike enthusiasm in the belief that anything, everything great is possible.  

I am a flower, a one of a kind.  I am a rock that chages sizes.  I am a blue sky when you look up and see me smiling at you.  I am the reason you woke up warm this morning and the reason you're excited about crawling into bed tonight.  What if we thought about that each day?  What is we celebrated our own importance to another person?

Sure, life is about the carpet choices, the art on the walls, the car in the driveway, the kink in the garden hose and the haste to remove it, the flowers that live and die and teach us how to take care of the next batch, the cookies that drip warm chocolate down the side of our lips, the great feel of new socks, the smell of our lover's hair, the sun on our face, the moments where tears fall because we love someone so much. 

The best part for me is realizing what it is like to feel safe, really safe with the expression of any thought or emotion.  What it really means when someone means it when they say they don't judge.  I like the shocking surprise of how even keeled I can be when "loved right".  The woman in the picture above is looking at me when this picture was taken.  She is looking at me.   I get that; I get that love, I get her love.

Doubt has always equaled loss for me.  Period.  I have doubted some people and their professed love for me and I have always been accurate in that doubt. 

So, the opposite of doubt, what is that?  Compassion, love, knowing, believing...well, then, I believe.